Archive for November 2011

Werther's Originals

Friday, November 11, 2011 § 3

I just don't react well to good news received by others.

Funny this one, I've only realized this fact recently.

You have a friend, received good news, you want to be happy for him, and suddenly there's this lump at the back of your throat. And there's a huge rock at the base of your tummy.

And you feel bad. Weird. This sort of explains my desire to be under the coconut shell I guess.

I end this post with a very, long, sigh.

Christmas Island

Thursday, November 10, 2011 § 0

Bagaikan katak di bawah tempurung.

Literal translation: Like being a frog under a coconut shell.

We grew up with this proverb, which means that a person is pretty much closed from the outside world, thus narrowing his mind. The education system taught us so, that this is much undesired, for it is a huge world out there and yes, not exploring would be a hell of a waste. And they're not wrong. It is indeed, that by staying in our small backyard, there is not a speck of knowledge to be gained.

But. (There's always a "but" with me, pardon.)

The world is a different place now. We are constantly judged. The peculiar thing is, we are judged not by our own abilities, yet that of others. Unfair, I know.

So the question is: What if we don't like being outside the coconut shell? What if we've been out there, and we prefer that small backyard?

Suddenly I feel like I want to be in my own coconut shell.

I didn't get the point of hermits before, but now I do.

Captain Hindsight

Monday, November 7, 2011 § 7

As men of faith, how do we know if something is a "sign" from the Almighty? How de wo approach such matters?

Difficult. For no one created a manual in recognizing one, and how to differentiate a so-called "sign" from a random occurence.

Obviously, having no such previous encounter beforehand, one got scared. Scared of what shall belie itself upon him. Would one be able to handle such responsibilities? Is my shoulder strong enough to handle such weight?

And most importantly: Am I ready?

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