Cream Crackers with Cheese

Thursday, January 22, 2015 § 0

It does seem that I only write when it's gloomy. It's a really depressing blog isn't it?

It's winter here. It's cold and it's gloomy. So here's some writings.

Every single soul, every single living being, was put on earth by the Almighty with one sole purpose: to obey Him.

And each and every one of us are put on earth into different paths on our lives. Some people have it easy, some tend to be a tad more difficult, some so hard that we could not even imagine it. Regardless of which path it is that is written for us, it is for the ultimate reason to always keep in mind that, all ease and hardships in life are from Him, for us to remember Him by.

In ease, we are taught to be thankful. And in hardships, we are taught to be patient.

For those who are in ease, we do not know the struggles they had to endure. And for those who are in hardship, we are taught not to lose hope in Him, that He shall grant ease.

Life is a challenge as a whole. It is unfair for us to judge, for that is His right and His right alone. We are all but His beings and servants. The purpose of upbringing in life is to endure such experiences, and to not lose hope.

It has taught my ancestors, my parents, and my own self the meaning of patience. And to Him I ask for help.

I have been sincere from the start, from the very beginning.

And I know I have not been the perfect servant.

All I ask is of patience and strength, and for Him to show me guidance. For His written ways is what is best for me.

Kerna aku ikhlas.

Sieben verdammt lange Tage

Tuesday, September 30, 2014 § 0

"We always want what we can't have, and crap at the ones we can". - movie quote, titled above.

Stay away from me. I'm only going to ruin things for you.

Back then when she left, I told a friend, maybe I was just not meant to be happy. I came to terms with it back then. And it can't be much truer than it is now.

And every single time I give it a try, the constant has always been me. In a scientific experiment, this would have been conclusive by now.

Everyone else is.

But me.

I keep chasing for simplicity, yet making it so much complicated in the end.

But life's like that. Complicated.

I am sorry.

To Him we shall return. And I've got a lot of answering to Him to do.

I do enjoy going to the movies alone. Funny how one a half hours of film could give you so much room, so much ample time to reflect, think.

Project Management

Monday, September 15, 2014 § 0

Tulisan kali ni dalam Bahasa Melayu, sebab aku rasa ia adalah medium perantaraan bagi aku yang paling sesuai.

Biar aku mula dengan cakap kita manusia, kita banyak buat silap.

Silap dengan manusia, silap dengan haiwan, dan semua akan pergi ke silap Dengan Allah S.W.T.

Kita bukan maksum, kita buat dosa.

Dan kita selalu lupa Dia.

Dan kalau Dia sayang kita, Dia akan uji kita untuk ingatkan kita balik dekat Dia.

Dan semua yang berlaku dekat aku baru-baru ni, Allah tunjuk dekat aku sendiri betapa besarnya kuasa Dia.

Dan aku bersyukur atas ujian yang dia bagi, dan aku bersyukur atas apa yang Dia tunjukkan.

Maha suci Allah, Tuhan sekalian alam.

Aku pernah tulis sebelum ni, beberapa post lepas, aku cakap selalu apa yang aku betul-betul nak, aku tak dapat simpan.

Aku cakap dulu kali ni aku ikhlas. Dan Dia dah tunjuk.

Doakan aku jadi hamba yang lagi baik.

Warteschlange

Monday, September 8, 2014 § 0

You just want the simplest of things.

Yet, somehow, one way or another, and for the lack of a better word, life just decides to sodomize you.

It does make me feel like I'm too young for this, moving through the hardships of life too quickly, growing up too fast.

All I need is a solution.

Westbound

Saturday, May 31, 2014 § 0

Kusangka aur di pinggir tebing
Kiranya tebu di pinggir bibir
Kusangka jujur pancaran batin
Rupanya palsu penghias zahir

Kukira hati jiwa nurani
Suci seindah wajah terbayang
Kukira puji seikhlas budi
Kulupa lidah tidak bertulang

Di manis gula semut binasa
Kail berduri bersalut umpan
Di manis kata insan terlena
Kerana budi hamba terkorban

Inikah dia lakunan hidup
Di pentas dunia insan berpura
Tipu dan daya pencapai maksud
Budi dan harta merangkum noda


Tak Seindah Wajah, by Tan Sri S.M. Salim.


Words. They take you on a journey. A great one as such.

Tardis

Thursday, May 8, 2014 § 0

Amazing, yet also saddening.

In a physical point of view, time is a dimension...

You know what. Try and explain time. Explain it to a five year old. Explain to people like they're five years old.

There was a basically a time where I need not not worry about looking for someone to talk to, have a chat. As it moves on, you meet people, you made friends, and unfortunately lose some along the way. I guess in such a short span of time, so many things change.

And you only realize this when you stop and have a glance backwards.

Incline

Sunday, April 27, 2014 § 0

"The spirit of a man will sustain his infirmity; But a broken spirit who can bear?"

Just some words to live by.

Bel-Air

Tuesday, January 7, 2014 § 0

I guess my nerves are somewhat shaken up, yet again.

Confidence.

I guess being in a new place, a new environment, looking up new things, learning different subjects, meeting new people. Normalcy in all its purity, for a man's nerves to be shaken up.

The thing about having things hard is, you sort of know what to expect. But this, it certainly doesn't feel like it's extremely difficult.

And THAT is why it's scary. For me at least.

Typewriter Therapy

Thursday, January 2, 2014 § 0

Happy 2014.

I came to realize it has indeed been such a while, and it is righteous in my opinion, with a literary and movie review. Oh how I've jumped into the bandwagon of glitz and glamour.

I read The Great Gatsby, or at least tried to, some years back. In the most fascinating way possible I found that it never stuck to me, weirdly. Literary heroes beware, I do not blame it on Mr. Fitzgerald, for he's a magnificent author as we already knew. Yet I struggled so much to recognize top from bottom, heads from tails. And to think it wasn't such a thick book to begin with. I actually struggled, and I wholeheartedly blame it upon myself, perhaps due to the lack of focus that I just wasn't able to give. I did not gave it the justice it deserves.

So I guess watching the movie itself, trying to make sense of it, was the next best idea that came to mind. In a way, it worked. And if I was to summarize it in one word: euphoric. The colours, the music, the dances, it was übertrieben in a way, somehow or another. Yet in the midst of the madness, it fits. (Though life, and love, amazingly, is just that isn't it?). Movie was in my opinion, relatable to the book itself. And for that, one does appreciate the works of the industry players.

Have a blessed year ahead.

(P/s: Soundtrack is creepy yet beautiful in a way. And sorry if my review is not as what you've accustomed to. I don't follow standards, although my line of work requires me to ironically)

Blessing

Saturday, August 3, 2013 § 0

I guess we all already know, that He works in many mysterious ways.

I know I've been somewhat lucky to have made it thus far. For that I can't thank Him enough.

I've gotten many things that I wanted so far, but also shown that I don't get to keep most of them.

But this time. This time. I pray that this time, things would finally change.

Kerna aku ikhlas.